I Tried to Reach Out

Dear M,I tried to reach out but I feel as if I'm still walking towards an endless road of despair and frustration. When will it end?I try my best to talk to you... but you never listen. Why is that?I try to lower my voice... but even a louder one doesn't make a difference.I try listening to you first and talking next, but you always run away. I try talking first and listening second, but you cut through my words and select the ones you want to hear.I try crying my heart out but that never affects...

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Muted and Hurting

Dear You,It's been a long time since I cried as much as I did. I feel sick and tired of the things we fight about. Sometimes, I keep wondering if I should be more strict in our relationship regarding the things that I am annoyed of with you. Because now, it's like I'm the one at fault because of getting mad for something I feel is the best way to deal with a certain situation.You've told me you're giving me a second chance to correct my wrongdoings and my quirks. But can't you see my frustrations...

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Sadness and Guilt

Dear M,Why do you never listen to me? Why do you lie to a lot of people including me? Why do you filter what you listen to when we talk? Why do you use my words against me? Why is it that you never try to understand my feelings?Why do you walk away when we talk?Why do you never try to consider our feelings?Why do you expect people to respect you when I, who is close to you, feel betrayed and manipulated whenever you talk to me?Why do I not say anything when I catch you lying most of the times?Why...

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Avoidance

Dearest Conveniently Coward Person,Why can you never acknowledge me? Why is it so hard to listen to me? Is it too much for me to ask you to face me whenever we have a conversation? Are you too scared to think of the things I said? Is it too much for you to face me whenever I need you to talk to me?I know I'm a handful to listen to, but I feel like no one whenever you avoid interacting with me-showing it in your tone, your boredom and obvious sarcasm. Do I not deserve to be listened to when I try...

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