The Feeling Down Syndrome

Today, I woke up feeling sad and not able to cheer myself up even with the gloomy cool weather outside my window. And for those who instantly concluded, "Well, it's probably because of the gloomy atmosphere", I love gloomy weathers. They make me feel happy. I love the rain as well as the darkness it spreads to envelope a place.

It's not because of the message from of one of those all time classics "Singin' in the Rain" (as supposed to being mashed-up with Umbrella in Glee)...

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but because, when it rains, the world feels alone. And that's how I normally feel everyday. Yes, there are people who concern themselves with my welfare. And I have loved ones who genuinely love me. Unfortunately, no matter how much I think of those people who care for me, there are just these days... that I feel....

(www.drawinghowto.com)

Even Spongebob has one of those days.

It used to be that doing certain activities that I love like playing video games, watching marathons or even just plainly suppressing it helps. Eating ice cream, pizza (with lots of cheese), pasta, and chocolates also does the job.

I had plans in posting a high-definition image of a devoured McDonald's meal but that'd be fastfood racism, LOL.

(http://www.sheknows.com/health-and-wellness/articles/811983/what-is-binge-eating-disorder)

But we know that's a bad habit and both fortunately and unfortunately for me, binging no longer works...

Never came to a point that I got to look like this.(http://atwistedblog.wordpress.com/)

Anyway, posting this blog, actually made me feel better. Talking about your feelings, even when nobody's listening or reading, is free. You don't have to pay a psychiatrist and for me I just get my wanted results. For those who have read this article, I do hope I have temporarily entertained you. For those who do not understand the feeling, I hope I have shone some light on it. Lastly, for those people saying that life is a series of simple actions and decisions, and that depression can be controlled easily if you have strong will...keep that to yourself (a kinder way of saying that you can shove it up your ass).

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Depression Education

I’m a 23 year-old female experiencing non-permanent, weather and event independent depression. What is there to say? Right now, I’m feeling it again.

Have you ever felt that your world is crumbling in front of you because you’re a failure? Or experienced not wanting to get out of the bed upon waking up because it seems that room is closing in? What about feeling that everybody’s looking at you, criticizing your every move? Without you knowing the answer, that is qualified as unexplained depression.

It’s hard for me to explain what this feeling is. I just know I have to press the keys of the keyboard for me to at least reduce the heavy weight pinning my breathing lungs and crushing my blood-pumping heart.

I’m sure a lot of people are saying that I’m not normal (Indeed, I’m not!) and that I should learn to deal with it. But hell, how can you cope with something you don’t exactly understand? It drives me crazy when someone close advises me to breathe in and out, relax, and take it one step at a time. It just wants me to cry and scream, “You’re not helping at all!!!

Now, what? I guess I just wanted to let that out. A word of advice for those who are attempting to help depressed people: if you haven’t experienced genuine depression, there is nothing you can say to make them feel better. And please stop talking about us being able to successfully overcome depression without some decent guidance.

Never compare us to you. You may have conquered heavy obstacles in your lives but this is different. The problem exists within us and our principles and mindsets are not capable of helping us- no matter how strong or intelligent we are. You’ll just have to accept that it’s not always in your capacity to push us through these ordeals and all you can do is support.

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